i can’t shake it….
i just can’t seem to shake it off. This nervous feeling. this fear of having to face every single day. i don’t even know how i’ve made it this far. There is so much wrong with me. I hate myself so much, to the point where i blatently tell people lies to make them think i’m something, that i’m someone… truth is i’m pathetic. i’ve got nothing. no talents, no assets no fancy clothes. i think the reason why i don’t is cause i knew from the beginning it would turn into this. i knew that eventually i would crack. i know how people say that people won’t remember or care.
I actually know that they won’t.
i have no intimate connection with anyone. they won’t care. i haven’t had any contact with any of my real friends in a long time. and that’s my fault, i think it’s cause i always knew it would turn into this. i’m a pile of bullshit. my life is made up of lies and self hatred. i can’t stand to look into the mirror, and i don’t know how to fix it.
i’m not worth anyones time. i’m not worth crying over. i’m not worth anything really.
i’ll go quietly. just shhh.
i’m sorry. i’m so sorry.
You can be in a relationship for two years and feel nothing; you can be in a relationship for 2 months and feel everything. Time is not a measure of quality; of infatuation, or of love.
this is not ok
telling time just got 300% more confusing
aesthetically interesting, cognitively nightmarish
Teacher: What’s the time?Me: *Mental breakdown*
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Do you ever just crave someone’s presence? like you would literally be happy just sitting next to them & it could be completely silent.
Being married someday is going to be so cool. like you get to come home to your best friend every single day and just do life together.